Well, I'm back. Yeah, I probably wasn't missed, and most likely if anyone was around back when I was here, you might not even remember me. But I had to say that. Life seems to always be a series of roller coaster rides for me - I moved (good), have the usual financial stress (bad), and a little guy very close to me was kidnapped [dirt-bag, druggie, family member] (very, very bad) & I've been trying to be emotionally supportive until the courts can get off of their @#$*% butts & send him back. I won't even get started about what I feel about the court system. :soapbox: Oddly enough, this caused to to consider - again - my previous interest in Social Services (I know - I think I just got used to being tormented. Anyway, now it seems the worst is over & I can get back to actually thinking about my own life. And I decided I need some sort of peace in my life, so I'm working on my creative side. :dance: Something a little more substantial than basket weaving - but crafts are good. Making an income from them - maybe not that good... So, once again, I'm trying to figure myself out. (yep, I'm back in the Indecisive Club again!!) This is what I think I know about myself: 1.) Forget Columbia College. Tried it last year. My brain will just start to get rolling, and their 8 week semester is finished. :banghead: Had to withdraw from the classes, but fortunately, with my massive health problems, lol, I was able to get WE, withdraw excused. Well, one wasn't approved, but I need to send in more documentation. Hopefully I won't end up owing them money. I'm sure it's right for others, but not for me. 2.) Forget testing. I never know, w/my pain level (I have an annoying disability) if I'll be fine on testing day. Plus, I have a horrid time remembering facts. Plus, with the level of distraction that I have, I probably have ADD. Plus, there's always some crisis that pops up in my life & I never even know if I can make it to a scheduled test! btw - my future son-in-law went to grad school at Harvard and he NEVER HAD TO TAKE A TEST W/OUT A TEXTBOOK. OK, distraction ended... 3.) I have to do something artistic. I want to use color. Texture. Perhaps Graphic Arts. Maybe working w/websites - but not development. Or actual hands-on art (kind of doing this on my own)... And... 4.) I want my work to be judged, (as in a portfolio, maybe), not by taking a test. 5.) I need to be able to finance my education w/financial aid, since I am currently (as always) dirt poor. No. Below dirt poor. Sigh... once again, I cannot even afford application fees... sigh... and: 6.) I hate tests. Just in case you didn't figure this out already. 7.) And it has to be as cheap as possible. Now, I can - and have been - doing a lot on my own, BUT I really want that degree. My problem now is that I can't find much online - that doesn't cost an arm. Plus, I have so many credits that fin. aid won't cover too much more. I'm really burnt out on psychology, sociology, and all the other stuff I took for what seemed like forever. On the other hand, I don't want to start all over from the beginning (considered applying to Mass Art - I'm near Boston - but I'll never be able to get the fin aid for all the needed credits). I know that I'm so close to a bachelor's (about 40 more credits), I should just do it... but I can't. I'm totally burnt out on all of it. Yet I don't want to give up entirely... So guys - coming here for any thoughts. Just don't kick me in the shins, lol!! And now - dancing bananas. Just because: :banana: :banana: :banana: Hey - my dancing bananas aren't dancing!! WTF???? Is this what happens when I leave???