With the 'Cedar Revolution' perhaps under way in Lebanon, are there any stirrings of freedom in Syria? The despair and realism is palpable under totalitarianism, from michaeltotten.com Marc Cooper found an outstanding blog by Ammar Abdulamid, a Syrian liberal who says the upheaval inLebanon is reverberating inside Syria in powerful and terrifying ways. Reading his blog is like asking foran emotional punch in the stomach. But Ammar is so intelligent, so knowledgeable of his country, and such a painfully honest writer I can’t turn away. http://amarji.blogspot.com/2005/03/rumors-facts-and-heresies.html "The City’s air is rife with all sorts of untoward rumors, everything is now possible: there is talk of arrests, purges, coup d’états, assassinations, sanctions, invasions, anything and everything, except, of course, freedom. Everything is possible except freedom. Freedom is never mentioned. Freedom never comes to mind. Freedom remains a distant dream. "The world is changing around us, but we, Damascenes, Syrians, Sunnis, ‘Alawis, Muslims, Christians, Arabs, Kurds, Circassians, or however we define ourselves these days, including perhaps heretics, can’t feel any hope in that. Nothing has touched us so far. Nothing seems to loom in the air, except for rumors and hearsays, none of which particularly inspired or inspiring. The face of an ugly and malevolent god still stares down upon any possibility of hope within us. "A reported wave of arrests has already swept a variety of 'low-key' dissidents, that is, those whose arrest is not likely to generate much notice abroad, or even here, no matter how terrible this may sound.But then, everything sounds terrible these days. Despairingly terrible. There is hope all around us, but somehow there always needs to be some pit of despair somewhere meant to serve as a continuous reminder of how things were or could again be. But those whose fate is to live in such a pit have themselves to blame as well. If history teaches anything it’s that such punishment is always earned somehow. We earned it with our long and studious silence. "Being a potentially high-profile case, not to mention, of course, a heretic, my punishment is doubled, tripled and quadrupled: I have to watch others arrested while I am spared, I have to live in the anticipation of a potentially worse fate when the 'right' time finally comes, I have to face the look of sickly blame on my sullen wife’s face, and I have to come back home at the end of another long day feeling numb and defeated, regardless of any achievements made. "Khawla and I have indeed reconciled ourselves to the fact that things seem to be like a race against timenow: our decision is not simply about leaving thecountry, but about leaving it before it’s too late, that is, before events catch up with us and prevent us from traveling, together, or at all… "All these years I spent abroad without ever trying to obtain if not another citizenship then simply another residency seem increasingly wasted to me now. All this misplaced love for and belonging to the homeland is coming back to haunt me. "But then, idealists never prosper, do they? Do they?On the positive side though, I feel like I have enough materials for a quite a few bestselling novels. One day this should make us all rich. One day." [Totten contunues:] I want to say something encouraging, but it’s hard. These are dangerous days in Syria. Nothing good will happen there while the Baath regime is in charge. It’s an obstacle that absolutely must be cleared out of the way. So the fact that Ammar detects the odor of fear coming off the regime is at least some reason to hope. There are always reasons to hope. And there are some that Ammar seems to forget about. Totalitarian regimes almost always disintegrate rapidly and seemingly out of the blue. I’m a bit surprised to find myself writing about the possible implosion of the Middle East’s other Baath Party state at all. I knew it would happen at some point, but in early February there was no way to say it would happen in early March. [Indeed. Wow,]
